Tag Archives: Spiritual Alignment

GOING WITHIN.

I’m human.  Although I do all I can to remain aligned and present across dimensions, there are still times when I feel……. human.

There are times when my feelings get hurt.  Times when I feel betrayed, used, rejected, taken advantage of,  vulnerable, annoyed or flat out angry.  Sometimes, I feel more than one emotion at a time, but I have responsibilities that force me to keep moving due to not being in the appropriate time and place to confront or express the issue.  Living in this matrix we call society causes us to become immune to suppressing our thoughts and feelings.  As we continue to move in our busyness, and ignore what has upset us, we push toxic thoughts and energy down into our being.  Eventually, we become what we are trying to squelch.  
As we pursue our personal growth, it is important to embrace these emotions as opportunities for advancement. When we can recognize not only what we’re feeling, but why we’re feeling it, and dig deeper to expose the root cause of why we feel the way we do, then we are able to transcend beyond our emotions. We are able to ascend.
My method is to withdraw. I go within and listen. I sage myself. I sage my space. I listen to music to target my chakras and remove subconscious fears and blockages. I write. I learn about myself. And sometimes, I discover that what I was upset about, has more to do with me than the other person or circumstance.  Realizing that the offense was not an offense, as much as a misperception, allows me to recognize the thought patterns and mental programs I still need to shed and release. Likewise, when I realize that the offense was actually an offense, and my emotions are valid, it is important to recognize and act on the opportunity to express myself and defend my boundaries.  
Ironically, some people are not worth the hassle of communicating with. Sometimes it’s just better to let sleeping dogs lie and move on without confrontation. However, this kind of moving on, is not the same as moving in obligation to fulfill our physical responsibilities.  Instead,  it is releasing and moving on with an attitude of understanding and clarity.  
When you get annoyed, angry, or upset, STOP. 
Go within.  And listen. …… Before you move.

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Why I’m single…..for now.

I never really thought about why I was single until one day, someone asked me, and I was stuck.  I didn’t really have a simple answer.  I didn’t even really know where to start.  I just sat there, dumbfounded.  I thought to myself, “I guess I need to think about how to articulate this in case I’m asked again.”

I continued living my life as I normally do and tried to feel where a relationship would fit and what I would want in a partner and why.  It wasn’t easy.  I’m very busy and I’m also very content.  I meditated and asked the question, “why am I single?”.

After a few days of listening for the answer, this is what I realized:

​I get a lot of 5D (spiritual) assignments that require me to use my spiritual gifts to assist people, some I know and most are strangers.  It is my priority to stay in spiritual alignment regardless of who is in my life and in what capacity they are in it.  Sometimes, 3D relationships and all the pettiness that goes into dating is just a big distraction.  I believe the person for me will gravitate towards me and enhance my vibe rather than cause interference with my energetic frequency.  Most men don’t even know what I’m talking about, so they could never really support me on this journey.  Besides that, being whole and knowing that I have all I need inside of me, changes my perspective of relationships.  I have already been married and divorced.  I have two children.  I don’t feel like I’m lacking or need to pursue anything. This physical life is temporary anyway.  “The One” is a relative illusion based on where we are at any given point in our lives. For me, there are more important things to focus on…..like fulfilling my divine purpose in life and raising the vibration of this planet.  

If I ever have a King, he will be on the same mission that I am on, or at least, he will understand that every now and then I have to put on my cape and channel someone’s ancestor or transitioned loved one.  I may see him unexpectedly through my third eye and have to call him out of nowhere to deliver a message from the Divine.  He may have a thought that I hear or feel from miles away and I am instructed to help keep him on course with his Divine purpose.   This is my life.  This is what I do, with or without him in it.  He has to be willing to go deep within himself and maintain his own connection and alignment to Source, while giving me the trust, respect, and freedom to fulfill my 5D to-do list.  Obviously, I would love to support him with his own life mission and journey to ascension.  It would give me no greater pleasure than to be the Queen to my King and give him the trust, respect, and freedom to fulfill his own destiny while he does the same for me.

If he is moving through life aligned with his higher self, and I am too, not only could we manifest some amazing stuff together, it would be the most exhilarating, soul quenching relationship ever!

If it’s supposed to happen, it will.  In the meantime, I am in the avatar of my Higher Self.  Chilling…….until further notice.

Only Love Lives Here!

This work week has been very interesting.  Monday was rough!  VERY rough!  I literally wanted to go to my car and never return! 💯 
As a result, Tuesday was more emotional than usual due to the retrograde of 5 planets last month and the full moon in Scorpio this week. But God always knows what we need at just the right time.  He sent me three students that I love me and they also love me back.  They are awake and hungry for conscious wisdom.  They asked how I was doing and if I was okay when they sensed something bothering me.  Instead of being “strong”, I decided to share so I told them the truth-
How I get so frustrated coming to work and being trapped in a room with people that are consistently disrespecting me.

How mad it makes me that they get little to no discipline from admin and they act up more because they know they can get away with mostly everything. 

How much it hurts that I care about most of my students more than they care about themselves.

How angry I am that I have to fight just to do my job.

How irritating it is to force-feed knowledge to students who act like they are anti-education.

How helpless I feel in this system that is committed to overlooking the real needs of students by forcing me to overtest them and restrict their physical and creative energy.

I told them how painful it is to see the future of every student..Including the poor choices they make and the regrets they will have for not listening to me. 

How irritating it is to have my family and co-workers make lame justifications for all of the bs I go through and tell me to just suck it up and because I’m “strong”.

They understood.

I said I needed to clear out the negative energy in my room and fill it up with positivity and  love.

They said they wanted to help.

I let them.

One covered the window on the door. 

Another opened the window.

I made a crystal grid on the center table of my room.

We sat around it at the table and meditated together for a couple minutes.

I instructed them to pull up beautiful thoughts and see everyone being good and feeling calm, loved, and safe. 

While in that space, I asked them to say,

“Only love lives here”.
I got up and lit a tiny piece of sage and cleansed the room and furniture. 

I shooed the negative energy out of the window.

Then I infused healing energy into each student’s desk.

I sat back down with them and we held love in our hearts together.  I told them to fill the room, then the school with a beautiful healing green light of loving energy.

When we finished, I left the crystals there and told them not to let anyone touch them.  

When my afternoon classes came in, I moved the crystals to my desk and decided to take my students outside for some fun team building activities and connect it to a lesson around being proactive vs. reactive.
Twice this week, a student with severe ADHD took the initiative to ask me if he could meditate in my room to help him be calm and prevent himself from getting in trouble.

I asked if he wanted guided or just music.  He preferred a guided meditation.  I shared my meditation oil with him and sat on my beanbag to join him.

I’m an empath as well, so I could feel him as if his body was mine.  I allowed the feelings of jittery distraction and anxiety run through my body…. Then I breathed.  I inhaled his energy and exhaled all the busyness that is no longer serving him.  I could see his life and the stress he feels.  How he is basically on his own…  

Then, I got downloads!  I made a green smoothie for myself this morning.  I was instructed to share it with him.  “Let him taste it and feel how good it makes him feel”.  I was told to talk to him about his diet and how to manage his energy through God’s food and meditation.

Then, suddenly, I felt him feeling calm and relaxed. 

We opened our eyes and  I obeyed my orders.  I got him a cup and poured some of my smoothie in it. He liked it. I told him how to make it. I told him what foods to avaoid and what to eat more of.  

While walking him back to class, I got another instruction:

 “Make him an obsidian chakra balancing bracelet this weekend.”  
I don’t know how to define what I do.  I’m labeled a “teacher”, but it doesn’t seem like I’m teaching anything academic that will be on these standardized tests.  

However, it feels like what happens in my room is sacred and life changing….when I can get through.

I don’t exactly know where I’m headed, but I do know I’m being led.  Instead of stressing trying to figure it out, all I must do is obey.

For now, it looks like this teacher has some homework for the weekend.  

​Hearing God’s Voice.

This morning, Tino asked to come outside and meditate with me.  He grabbed a peacock ore crystal and a mat.  I grabbed my mat and amythyst.  We chose a spot in the sun.  He connected his mat to mine.  I reminded him that when we meditate, we are listening to God. I told him to feel God in all the nature that surrounded us.  I pointed to a bird flying in the sky and reminded him that God lives inside and takes care of all living things.  I called his attention to all the abundance of life around us….  The trees, squirrels, bugs underneath the ground, fish in all the lakes and oceans, and even the fish and critters living in the yucky Flint river.  A helicopter began flying overhead toward the hospital.  I pointed to it and told him that God is taking care of all of us…. The pilot who’s trying to land safely, the nurses on board trying to take care of the sick person inside, and the sick person who is probably praying to get better.  God hears all of us and gives us all that we need, just at the time we need it.  Then, we rubbed our fingers through the grass.  I told him we were like one tiny, little blade of grass among all the billions of people and other life existing on Earth.  He pulled one blade of grass up and looked at it.  I reminded him that even that tiny blade of grass needs the right amount of sun, rain, and nutrients to survive and God gives the grass so much love and care that it grows back every year, even after I cut it every week in the summer.  Then, he looked at his crystal and remembered that God makes them too.  I said, “they are found deep in caves and they’re really hard to get to, but God grows them and created them to give off energy to help us feel good.”

I told him to close his eyes, breathe deep, and feel the wind and sun touching his face, listen to to the birds and other sounds of life all around us.  We both did it. Together.  Side by side, in lotus position, crystals in hand….   We sat in silence for about 10 minutes.  We opened our eyes and then, something really powerful  happened; I taught him how to hear God.

“When you have a problem, and you need God’s help in knowing what to do, just sit down, close your eyes, and speak to God with your heart. Say how you feel and ask a question, then, listen for the answer.  It won’t sound like a big deep voice coming from the sky because God lives inside of us.  It will probably sound like your own voice, but instead of hearing words in your mind, you will feel it come from your belly and heart. It will probably be something different than what you would normally think, and it will feel really good.  You will feel strong, confident, and peaceful.  The answer will make you feel a warm sense of joy and love.  When you open your eyes, you will know exactly what to do.
If you ever feel icky about something, stop what you’re doing and sit down to ask God what you should be doing instead.  When you feel that peaceful answer rise up, be obedient.  Do what you saw in your mind and follow what God showed you in your heart.
Lastly, the most important thing to do is to say, ‘Thank you’.  The more you listen, the more you will be able to hear.  The more you are thankful, the more God will bless you.”
At that moment, I realized, this was the most powerful lesson I could ever teach my six year old Sun:
Hearing God’s Voice.

BE YOU.

​Have you ever looked up and realized that you weren’t enjoying your life? 
That the routine and regimen that you have upheld for several years suddenly just didn’t fit anymore?
Have you ever felt yourself at the crossroads between happiness and settling?
Like you were falling down a black hole and trying to catch a glimpse of the sunlight-

Find something to grab hold to, and pull yourself back up?
It is in this moment of clarity that we must make a conscious decision.
We must make a choice to continue being a victim of our circumstances, or become a creator of our own reality.
We have the power to initiate a paradigm shift whenever we want one.
All we have to do, is decide.
Make a decision that what you want is worth having.
Make a decision that you are worthy of having what you want.
More importantly, make a decision that what you want, is also what the Divine wants for you!
If the Creator, Divine Source energy, places the desires of your heart within you, 
How could He/She not support you when you pursue those desires that dwell Within? 
You have everything you need within you!
We often forget how powerful we are…
We are remnants of the Creator!
When others try to view your life from an outside perspective,
And tell you that what you don’t want is actually great for you-
Stand firm in your decision!
You don’t have to settle for less than what you want just because it makes sense to other people around you.
Your life is yours!
No one else can live it for you.
They can spectate, make assumptions, and draw conclusions, 
But they can never, physically, walk in your shoes.
However, if you are not happy, they will definitely feel it… From the outside.
Dissatisfaction can show up as a bad attitude, unpleasant temperament, negative thoughts or unhealthy habits.
You don’t owe anyone an explanation for being TRUE TO YOURSELF!
Carry out YOUR DESTINY!
Fulfill YOUR PURPOSE!
LIVE YOUR DREAMS!
BE YOU in all of YOUR AUTHENTIC GLORY!!
God created YOU for a reason.
Show the world who YOU are!

Balancing Contrast.

​How do we remain high when so many things around us are low?
Detach.
That doesn’t mean stop caring.  It just means don’t embrace the negativity as a part of our beings.
There are levels of consciousness.
First, we become aware of the truth behind the lies.
Next, we release our old mental programs and re-evaluate the origins of our belief systems.
Lastly, we must step out of ego and listen to Divine Wisdom as we heal and move forward.
Many people skip this last step and become entrenched with the negativity that surrounds them.  Before long, their ego is intensified by fear and anger.
Their chakras get out of balance, and they become overwhelmed with the chaos and confusion bombarding this physical realm.
We speak of our ancestors, but how many of us listen to their guidance?
They are observing our struggles from a higher demension.  They will tell us the way to peace, if we would only listen.  They have been through much worse than we are facing now.  They know from experience exactly what we need to do to overcome the barriers we face.  They know that most of what paralyzes and restricts us, is only an illusion. We have insurmountable power flowing through our etheric and physical bodies.  
We have the ability to transmute energy from negative to positive.  Fear into love.  War into peace. We don’t believe it, but only because we aren’t listening….
Our ancestors are within us.  

As is the Divine.  
Know Thyself.
Change the World.

Life in Contrast.

​How do we remain high when so many things around us are low?
Detach.
That doesn’t mean stop caring.  It just means don’t embrace the negativity as a part of our beings.
There are levels of consciousness.
First, we become aware of the truth behind the lies.
Next, we release our old mental programs and re-evaluate the origins of our belief systems.
Lastly, we must step out of ego and listen to Divine Wisdom as we heal and move forward.
Many people skip this last step and become entrenched with the negativity that surrounds them.  Before long, their ego is intensified by fear and anger.
Their chakras get out of balance, and they become overwhelmed with the chaos and confusion bombarding this physical realm.
We speak of our ancestors, but how many of us listen to their guidance?
They are observing our struggles from a higher demension.  They will tell us the way to peace, if we would only listen.  They have been through much worse than we are facing now.  They know from experience exactly what we need to do to overcome the barriers we face.  They know that most of what paralyzes and restricts us, is only an illusion. We have insurmountable power flowing through our etheric and physical bodies.  
We have the ability to transmute energy from negative to positive.  Fear into love.  War into peace. We don’t believe it, but only because we aren’t listening….
Our ancestors are within us.  

As is the Divine.  
Know Thyself.
Change the World.