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Why I’m single…..for now.

I never really thought about why I was single until one day, someone asked me, and I was stuck.  I didn’t really have a simple answer.  I didn’t even really know where to start.  I just sat there, dumbfounded.  I thought to myself, “I guess I need to think about how to articulate this in case I’m asked again.”

I continued living my life as I normally do and tried to feel where a relationship would fit and what I would want in a partner and why.  It wasn’t easy.  I’m very busy and I’m also very content.  I meditated and asked the question, “why am I single?”.

After a few days of listening for the answer, this is what I realized:

​I get a lot of 5D (spiritual) assignments that require me to use my spiritual gifts to assist people, some I know and most are strangers.  It is my priority to stay in spiritual alignment regardless of who is in my life and in what capacity they are in it.  Sometimes, 3D relationships and all the pettiness that goes into dating is just a big distraction.  I believe the person for me will gravitate towards me and enhance my vibe rather than cause interference with my energetic frequency.  Most men don’t even know what I’m talking about, so they could never really support me on this journey.  Besides that, being whole and knowing that I have all I need inside of me, changes my perspective of relationships.  I have already been married and divorced.  I have two children.  I don’t feel like I’m lacking or need to pursue anything. This physical life is temporary anyway.  “The One” is a relative illusion based on where we are at any given point in our lives. For me, there are more important things to focus on…..like fulfilling my divine purpose in life and raising the vibration of this planet.  

If I ever have a King, he will be on the same mission that I am on, or at least, he will understand that every now and then I have to put on my cape and channel someone’s ancestor or transitioned loved one.  I may see him unexpectedly through my third eye and have to call him out of nowhere to deliver a message from the Divine.  He may have a thought that I hear or feel from miles away and I am instructed to help keep him on course with his Divine purpose.   This is my life.  This is what I do, with or without him in it.  He has to be willing to go deep within himself and maintain his own connection and alignment to Source, while giving me the trust, respect, and freedom to fulfill my 5D to-do list.  Obviously, I would love to support him with his own life mission and journey to ascension.  It would give me no greater pleasure than to be the Queen to my King and give him the trust, respect, and freedom to fulfill his own destiny while he does the same for me.

If he is moving through life aligned with his higher self, and I am too, not only could we manifest some amazing stuff together, it would be the most exhilarating, soul quenching relationship ever!

If it’s supposed to happen, it will.  In the meantime, I am in the avatar of my Higher Self.  Chilling…….until further notice.

MOVE ON!

How loudly must we cry in order to be heard?

How bad does it have to get before we are understood?

If I have a flashback and cry in class

All you do after everyone laughs

Is tell me: 

MOVE ON!

I wish you would take me to the side

Give me some tissue for my eyes,

Maybe a hug would be good 

If you sincerely felt like you should.

But instead, you just tell me:

MOVE ON!

What am I supposed to do?

Who am I supposed to go to?

I am the voice of those unheard

Those who have had their dreams deferred.

Parents who are stressed

Teachers who are overwhelmed

Children with arms outstretched

Longing to be rescued.

We can’t forget how we 

got here so how can we:

MOVE ON?

From sitting in the desk

To now standing behind it

A single parent of two little ones

No words can describe this

Feeling of fear and despair

Yet hopeful determination.

We are resilient.

We are creative. 

But we need our next generation!

Only in love and unity will we:

MOVE ON!

We don’t have a choice

I wish more would raise their voice

Rather than suffer in silence

Trying to keep their faces fixed

I wish less would talk and more would listen

It would completely change their disposition.

If they could hear our ancestors guide us

They wouldn’t just lead, but they would help us survive this.

Then we could:

MOVE ON!

One thing I’ve learned in life

Is we can’t depend on someone else’s dime

We must rise to our feet

Brush the dust off our sleeves.

Sit still in meditation,

And follow our intuition

We must fill ourselves with love

Overflowing with power from above

Grab the hands of our neighbors 

Lift them up in praises

And together let us all say:

MOVE ON!

Chakra Love

You say I’m beautiful, but how can you see me with only two eyes open?

You say you love me, but how can you know that when your heart space needs healing?

You say you want my body, but your sacral is unbalanced so…..

I don’t take it personal.

You say you want deep dialogue, but your overactive solar plexus​ is feeding ego-

Through your throat, causing you to emit arrogance and closed​ mindedness that I don’t want to entertain.

You think the only crown you have is the figurative hat you wear as a good man,

Which is why you don’t even really Know who I Am.

I want a love that is so deep it penetrates the depths of my soul.

I can feel him from the inside out.

He has me reaching, stretching,

Doing mental yoga trying to gain his wisdom.

He doesn’t just teach me facts, he teaches​ me much more than that.

Silent lessons too intense for words-

He helps me heal and never causes me to hurt.

Confident in himself and fully aware of his vibration,

He checks his energy at the door, so I won’t have to sage him.

He knows exactly what he needs, and he always has it on him.

He doesn’t just wear crystals and beads-

He knows how to use them.

Being balanced on our own helps us be balanced when we’re together.

The only way to go is up, as long as we follow our own procedures.

He knows my hands are like defibrillators, bringing life to all that I touch.

So he invites me to heal his soul, 

He is my Chakra Love.

Listening for Angels

Angels are always right there by your side to show you the next right move, confirm that you are on track, and keep you encouraged along the way.  They are here to assist EVERYONE, but you have to block out the noise in order to hear. 
You can’t be involved in petty comment threads on low vibrational posts, watching drama filled tv, and soaking in all the fake and manipulating news…..  
You can’t initiate or engage in negative conversations that will only result in lowering your vibration and someone​ else’s…..
Unless of course, you don’t want to hear them.  
Everyone has their own will and choices.  Your life can be a beautiful adventure full of angelic coaches and divine intervention keeping you on a smooth and speedy ascent like your own personal navigation system, or it can be complicated and stressful.  You can continue to do it all on your own, or you can surrender ego and allow the Divine force to flow through and assist you.
In order to hear, you have to raise your vibration. You have to open up your heart space and allow light in to your soul. You have to silence your inner chatter and allow Divine light to enter your crown and flow through your third eye and show you signs and messages in the most peculiar ways.
It’s not difficult, all you have to do is turn off the noise, and listen. 
But I guess for some, that’s the hard part.

You’re talking, but are you listening?

PSA: If you’re still debating historical facts, current events, and condemning others for not being as angry as you are, you’re not really “conscious”, you’re just “waking up”.  
To be conscious means to apply divine wisdom that can only be gained through time spent listening to the Divine.  Here, you will see beyond the barriers of race and religion. You will begin to see love and emit light. 

It’s not enough to simply know of Orishas, Shamans, Ancestors, Ascended Masters, and Spirit Guides, etc.  

We need to listen to them.

Our ancestors give us knowledge so we can spread truth and light, not so we can judge others that don’t yet know.  However, we can’t access true knowledge if we only talk and refuse to listen….

So I urge you, don’t just pass along factual information, spread LIGHT!🌟

Only Love Lives Here!

This work week has been very interesting.  Monday was rough!  VERY rough!  I literally wanted to go to my car and never return! 💯 
As a result, Tuesday was more emotional than usual due to the retrograde of 5 planets last month and the full moon in Scorpio this week. But God always knows what we need at just the right time.  He sent me three students that I love me and they also love me back.  They are awake and hungry for conscious wisdom.  They asked how I was doing and if I was okay when they sensed something bothering me.  Instead of being “strong”, I decided to share so I told them the truth-
How I get so frustrated coming to work and being trapped in a room with people that are consistently disrespecting me.

How mad it makes me that they get little to no discipline from admin and they act up more because they know they can get away with mostly everything. 

How much it hurts that I care about most of my students more than they care about themselves.

How angry I am that I have to fight just to do my job.

How irritating it is to force-feed knowledge to students who act like they are anti-education.

How helpless I feel in this system that is committed to overlooking the real needs of students by forcing me to overtest them and restrict their physical and creative energy.

I told them how painful it is to see the future of every student..Including the poor choices they make and the regrets they will have for not listening to me. 

How irritating it is to have my family and co-workers make lame justifications for all of the bs I go through and tell me to just suck it up and because I’m “strong”.

They understood.

I said I needed to clear out the negative energy in my room and fill it up with positivity and  love.

They said they wanted to help.

I let them.

One covered the window on the door. 

Another opened the window.

I made a crystal grid on the center table of my room.

We sat around it at the table and meditated together for a couple minutes.

I instructed them to pull up beautiful thoughts and see everyone being good and feeling calm, loved, and safe. 

While in that space, I asked them to say,

“Only love lives here”.
I got up and lit a tiny piece of sage and cleansed the room and furniture. 

I shooed the negative energy out of the window.

Then I infused healing energy into each student’s desk.

I sat back down with them and we held love in our hearts together.  I told them to fill the room, then the school with a beautiful healing green light of loving energy.

When we finished, I left the crystals there and told them not to let anyone touch them.  

When my afternoon classes came in, I moved the crystals to my desk and decided to take my students outside for some fun team building activities and connect it to a lesson around being proactive vs. reactive.
Twice this week, a student with severe ADHD took the initiative to ask me if he could meditate in my room to help him be calm and prevent himself from getting in trouble.

I asked if he wanted guided or just music.  He preferred a guided meditation.  I shared my meditation oil with him and sat on my beanbag to join him.

I’m an empath as well, so I could feel him as if his body was mine.  I allowed the feelings of jittery distraction and anxiety run through my body…. Then I breathed.  I inhaled his energy and exhaled all the busyness that is no longer serving him.  I could see his life and the stress he feels.  How he is basically on his own…  

Then, I got downloads!  I made a green smoothie for myself this morning.  I was instructed to share it with him.  “Let him taste it and feel how good it makes him feel”.  I was told to talk to him about his diet and how to manage his energy through God’s food and meditation.

Then, suddenly, I felt him feeling calm and relaxed. 

We opened our eyes and  I obeyed my orders.  I got him a cup and poured some of my smoothie in it. He liked it. I told him how to make it. I told him what foods to avaoid and what to eat more of.  

While walking him back to class, I got another instruction:

 “Make him an obsidian chakra balancing bracelet this weekend.”  
I don’t know how to define what I do.  I’m labeled a “teacher”, but it doesn’t seem like I’m teaching anything academic that will be on these standardized tests.  

However, it feels like what happens in my room is sacred and life changing….when I can get through.

I don’t exactly know where I’m headed, but I do know I’m being led.  Instead of stressing trying to figure it out, all I must do is obey.

For now, it looks like this teacher has some homework for the weekend.  

​Hearing God’s Voice.

This morning, Tino asked to come outside and meditate with me.  He grabbed a peacock ore crystal and a mat.  I grabbed my mat and amythyst.  We chose a spot in the sun.  He connected his mat to mine.  I reminded him that when we meditate, we are listening to God. I told him to feel God in all the nature that surrounded us.  I pointed to a bird flying in the sky and reminded him that God lives inside and takes care of all living things.  I called his attention to all the abundance of life around us….  The trees, squirrels, bugs underneath the ground, fish in all the lakes and oceans, and even the fish and critters living in the yucky Flint river.  A helicopter began flying overhead toward the hospital.  I pointed to it and told him that God is taking care of all of us…. The pilot who’s trying to land safely, the nurses on board trying to take care of the sick person inside, and the sick person who is probably praying to get better.  God hears all of us and gives us all that we need, just at the time we need it.  Then, we rubbed our fingers through the grass.  I told him we were like one tiny, little blade of grass among all the billions of people and other life existing on Earth.  He pulled one blade of grass up and looked at it.  I reminded him that even that tiny blade of grass needs the right amount of sun, rain, and nutrients to survive and God gives the grass so much love and care that it grows back every year, even after I cut it every week in the summer.  Then, he looked at his crystal and remembered that God makes them too.  I said, “they are found deep in caves and they’re really hard to get to, but God grows them and created them to give off energy to help us feel good.”

I told him to close his eyes, breathe deep, and feel the wind and sun touching his face, listen to to the birds and other sounds of life all around us.  We both did it. Together.  Side by side, in lotus position, crystals in hand….   We sat in silence for about 10 minutes.  We opened our eyes and then, something really powerful  happened; I taught him how to hear God.

“When you have a problem, and you need God’s help in knowing what to do, just sit down, close your eyes, and speak to God with your heart. Say how you feel and ask a question, then, listen for the answer.  It won’t sound like a big deep voice coming from the sky because God lives inside of us.  It will probably sound like your own voice, but instead of hearing words in your mind, you will feel it come from your belly and heart. It will probably be something different than what you would normally think, and it will feel really good.  You will feel strong, confident, and peaceful.  The answer will make you feel a warm sense of joy and love.  When you open your eyes, you will know exactly what to do.
If you ever feel icky about something, stop what you’re doing and sit down to ask God what you should be doing instead.  When you feel that peaceful answer rise up, be obedient.  Do what you saw in your mind and follow what God showed you in your heart.
Lastly, the most important thing to do is to say, ‘Thank you’.  The more you listen, the more you will be able to hear.  The more you are thankful, the more God will bless you.”
At that moment, I realized, this was the most powerful lesson I could ever teach my six year old Sun:
Hearing God’s Voice.