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Only Love Lives Here!

This work week has been very interesting.  Monday was rough!  VERY rough!  I literally wanted to go to my car and never return! 💯 
As a result, Tuesday was more emotional than usual due to the retrograde of 5 planets last month and the full moon in Scorpio this week. But God always knows what we need at just the right time.  He sent me three students that I love me and they also love me back.  They are awake and hungry for conscious wisdom.  They asked how I was doing and if I was okay when they sensed something bothering me.  Instead of being “strong”, I decided to share so I told them the truth-
How I get so frustrated coming to work and being trapped in a room with people that are consistently disrespecting me.

How mad it makes me that they get little to no discipline from admin and they act up more because they know they can get away with mostly everything. 

How much it hurts that I care about most of my students more than they care about themselves.

How angry I am that I have to fight just to do my job.

How irritating it is to force-feed knowledge to students who act like they are anti-education.

How helpless I feel in this system that is committed to overlooking the real needs of students by forcing me to overtest them and restrict their physical and creative energy.

I told them how painful it is to see the future of every student..Including the poor choices they make and the regrets they will have for not listening to me. 

How irritating it is to have my family and co-workers make lame justifications for all of the bs I go through and tell me to just suck it up and because I’m “strong”.

They understood.

I said I needed to clear out the negative energy in my room and fill it up with positivity and  love.

They said they wanted to help.

I let them.

One covered the window on the door. 

Another opened the window.

I made a crystal grid on the center table of my room.

We sat around it at the table and meditated together for a couple minutes.

I instructed them to pull up beautiful thoughts and see everyone being good and feeling calm, loved, and safe. 

While in that space, I asked them to say,

“Only love lives here”.
I got up and lit a tiny piece of sage and cleansed the room and furniture. 

I shooed the negative energy out of the window.

Then I infused healing energy into each student’s desk.

I sat back down with them and we held love in our hearts together.  I told them to fill the room, then the school with a beautiful healing green light of loving energy.

When we finished, I left the crystals there and told them not to let anyone touch them.  

When my afternoon classes came in, I moved the crystals to my desk and decided to take my students outside for some fun team building activities and connect it to a lesson around being proactive vs. reactive.
Twice this week, a student with severe ADHD took the initiative to ask me if he could meditate in my room to help him be calm and prevent himself from getting in trouble.

I asked if he wanted guided or just music.  He preferred a guided meditation.  I shared my meditation oil with him and sat on my beanbag to join him.

I’m an empath as well, so I could feel him as if his body was mine.  I allowed the feelings of jittery distraction and anxiety run through my body…. Then I breathed.  I inhaled his energy and exhaled all the busyness that is no longer serving him.  I could see his life and the stress he feels.  How he is basically on his own…  

Then, I got downloads!  I made a green smoothie for myself this morning.  I was instructed to share it with him.  “Let him taste it and feel how good it makes him feel”.  I was told to talk to him about his diet and how to manage his energy through God’s food and meditation.

Then, suddenly, I felt him feeling calm and relaxed. 

We opened our eyes and  I obeyed my orders.  I got him a cup and poured some of my smoothie in it. He liked it. I told him how to make it. I told him what foods to avaoid and what to eat more of.  

While walking him back to class, I got another instruction:

 “Make him an obsidian chakra balancing bracelet this weekend.”  
I don’t know how to define what I do.  I’m labeled a “teacher”, but it doesn’t seem like I’m teaching anything academic that will be on these standardized tests.  

However, it feels like what happens in my room is sacred and life changing….when I can get through.

I don’t exactly know where I’m headed, but I do know I’m being led.  Instead of stressing trying to figure it out, all I must do is obey.

For now, it looks like this teacher has some homework for the weekend.  

Letting go of 3D…. For good!

We are programmed to function and operate in only 3D from birth.  Mostly everything we encounter in our physical, social, economic, educational, and religious experience teaches us and molds us to sustain a 3D existence.  This is due to the needs of the capitalist economy we were born into and the matrix created to fulfill those needs.  As we become enlightened, and eventually awake, we move from 3D to 5D.  We can only make this move by releasing all of those things we were taught and conditioned to believe we “NEED” in 3D. 

 Most of these “needs” are so deeply embedded in our subconscious minds, that we don’t even realize that we are holding on to thoughts and routines that are no longer serving us.  It can be scary to literally disrupt the foundation of our physical existence….on purpose, by letting go of the things we have been taught since our formative years (I need a job to earn money.  I need money to survive.  I need a spouse or children to fulfill my purpose for being created). However, by gradually defining the basis of our own lives, and deciding what WE truly believe, want, and need, we evolve into beings who are less physical and more spiritual in existence.  By straddling the fence, so to speak, we delay our progress in this evolutionary process.  So in short, we hold on because we fear letting go.  We fear having to go through the work of redefining our foundational beliefs.  We fear looking crazy to other people.  We fear…..the unknown.  

Living in 5D, means knowing that you don’t have to know all the answers at any given moment, but understanding that you have all of the answers inside of you all the time and exactly how to access that infinite wisdom at any given moment.  We are taught that life is hard.  We must struggle, work hard, earn our stripes, pay our dues…in order to be successful.  But this couldn’t be further from the truth!  We are supposed to experience the fullness of life as spiritual beings and enjoy the abundance of this physical experience.  We are told that life is short. When death comes, it’s all over…  Lies!  Death is only an illusion.  We come back again and again. In the meantime, we are still alive, in 4D.  The problem is, when we come back again, we are reset. Reprogrammed into this 3D existence with a 3D state of mind to begin the process again- releasing and reconstructing our mental programs in order to return to our truest form of Self.  Our higher self.  Our completely etheric being. So in a nutshell, habit and fear keep us from letting go of 3D.
Like any other habit, you release 3D tendencies by replacing them with more suitable, 5D strategies, one step at a time. 

“Black Consciousness” vs. Consciousness.

One day, I hope that all my “Black Conscious” friends realize that being angry is not really effectively raising the consciousness of this planet.  Yes, it is absolutely necessary that we have a true knowledge of Self.  Yes, we need to be aware of what has been and is still going on behind the history and systems of this physical world.  Yes, we do need to unify, build, and support each other in our socio-economic endeavors.  Yes, we need to rebuild our communities and create our own systems of education, finance, health, and commerce. 
But no, we do not need to expend our precious energy on hating those that have hated us for centuries.

On the contrary, we need to use our energy wisely and transmute the BS that is pushed our way. Instead of allowing our vibration to be manipulated and controlled by the systems we disagree with, we need to maintain our positive, and high vibes.  When we feel overwhelmed with anger, we need to transmute that negative energy into love and compassion for our people, our communities, and our world.  To love our enemies does not necessarily mean to like them.  It means to love the lessons learned, and to appreciate the strength and wisdom which have been passed down from generations of our ancestors through the intricacies of our DNA.  

Some of my most conscious brothers and sisters are so bitter and filled with hate, they don’t even realize how deeply  they are caught up into this web of a matrix and playing right into the hands of the oppressor.

Overstand this:  Wisdom is in our melanin.  Learn how to use it properly.  Nurture. Educate. Empower. But most importantly, LOVE. Everyone. Period.

To be conscious is to be intent on raising not just awareness, but also the vibration of this planet.  Why do you think we knew how to build pyramids in the first place?  I know you didn’t think they were actually just burial tombs. Lol

-Hotep ✌