This work week has been very interesting. Monday was rough! VERY rough! I literally wanted to go to my car and never return! 💯
As a result, Tuesday was more emotional than usual due to the retrograde of 5 planets last month and the full moon in Scorpio this week. But God always knows what we need at just the right time. He sent me three students that I love me and they also love me back. They are awake and hungry for conscious wisdom. They asked how I was doing and if I was okay when they sensed something bothering me. Instead of being “strong”, I decided to share so I told them the truth-
How I get so frustrated coming to work and being trapped in a room with people that are consistently disrespecting me.
How mad it makes me that they get little to no discipline from admin and they act up more because they know they can get away with mostly everything.
How much it hurts that I care about most of my students more than they care about themselves.
How angry I am that I have to fight just to do my job.
How irritating it is to force-feed knowledge to students who act like they are anti-education.
How helpless I feel in this system that is committed to overlooking the real needs of students by forcing me to overtest them and restrict their physical and creative energy.
I told them how painful it is to see the future of every student..Including the poor choices they make and the regrets they will have for not listening to me.
How irritating it is to have my family and co-workers make lame justifications for all of the bs I go through and tell me to just suck it up and because I’m “strong”.
I said I needed to clear out the negative energy in my room and fill it up with positivity and love.
They said they wanted to help.
I let them.
One covered the window on the door.
Another opened the window.
I made a crystal grid on the center table of my room.
We sat around it at the table and meditated together for a couple minutes.
I instructed them to pull up beautiful thoughts and see everyone being good and feeling calm, loved, and safe.
While in that space, I asked them to say,
“Only love lives here”.
I got up and lit a tiny piece of sage and cleansed the room and furniture.
I shooed the negative energy out of the window.
Then I infused healing energy into each student’s desk.
I sat back down with them and we held love in our hearts together. I told them to fill the room, then the school with a beautiful healing green light of loving energy.
When we finished, I left the crystals there and told them not to let anyone touch them.
When my afternoon classes came in, I moved the crystals to my desk and decided to take my students outside for some fun team building activities and connect it to a lesson around being proactive vs. reactive.
Twice this week, a student with severe ADHD took the initiative to ask me if he could meditate in my room to help him be calm and prevent himself from getting in trouble.
I asked if he wanted guided or just music. He preferred a guided meditation. I shared my meditation oil with him and sat on my beanbag to join him.
I’m an empath as well, so I could feel him as if his body was mine. I allowed the feelings of jittery distraction and anxiety run through my body…. Then I breathed. I inhaled his energy and exhaled all the busyness that is no longer serving him. I could see his life and the stress he feels. How he is basically on his own…
Then, I got downloads! I made a green smoothie for myself this morning. I was instructed to share it with him. “Let him taste it and feel how good it makes him feel”. I was told to talk to him about his diet and how to manage his energy through God’s food and meditation.
Then, suddenly, I felt him feeling calm and relaxed.
We opened our eyes and I obeyed my orders. I got him a cup and poured some of my smoothie in it. He liked it. I told him how to make it. I told him what foods to avaoid and what to eat more of.
While walking him back to class, I got another instruction:
“Make him an obsidian chakra balancing bracelet this weekend.”
I don’t know how to define what I do. I’m labeled a “teacher”, but it doesn’t seem like I’m teaching anything academic that will be on these standardized tests.
However, it feels like what happens in my room is sacred and life changing….when I can get through.
I don’t exactly know where I’m headed, but I do know I’m being led. Instead of stressing trying to figure it out, all I must do is obey.
For now, it looks like this teacher has some homework for the weekend.