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Love and Truth.

Confession: 

I’ve never wanted a relationship.  

I was always inspired by hermits.

I used to mail formal invites to my “break-up parties” that were held within a week of ending a relationship.

I used to have major panic attacks at weddings and bridal showers, so I stopped trying to go to them at all.  I knew people wouldn’t understand the anxiety I felt, so  I would just mail gift cards after the fact.

At weddings, when the couple recited the vows, I would see shackles and hear words of ownership being spoken. 

I had a panic attack halfway down the aisle of my own wedding and literally needed both of my parents to walk me.  They were whispering encouraging words, “Keep going.  You’re okay. “


My marriage became abusive within the first two years. 

I regretted forcing myself to do something that was clearly so unnatural for me.

I was excited to get divorced.  I didn’t have a party, but I have celebrated my freedom every day since he left. 

It’s  been four years since my divorce was final.  


I feel Whole.  Complete.  Healed.  Powerful.  Intuitive.  Devine.  Royal.  Precious.  Loveable.  Amazing. And Aligned with Spirit and Truth.


I don’t want to jeopardize any of that by adding another person to the equation who will interfere with the progress I’ve made.  


Some people can be needy.  Clingy.  Manipulative.  And unintentionally controlling.  I’m so in love with my personal growth and ascension journey, I have no interest in compromising that for the sake of a romantic relationship.  Time is an illusion and this may or may not be my last lifetime.  


Either way, I’m  enjoying my journey without a man so much that I don’t want a man if I can’t continue to grow and flourish as I have these past four years.  


I am so much better!  I want more! I am in LOVE with growing!!!  If he can’t pour into my soul, I don’t want him.  


If all he can do is focus on the physical aspects of me and things of this temporary, 3D realm, he’s not for me.  


“He” will be my King, not my student.

“He” will pour into my being, rather than deplete me.

“He” will show me with his actions that I am in great hands. 

“He” will not run from my truth.

“He” will empower me with his consistency and be patient as I allow myself to trust him.  

“He” will encourage me through his energetic vibration.


His higher self will speak to mine and say “Keep going.  You’re okay” …….


And I will believe “Him” and let myself love again. 


I won’t be “His” and “He” won’t be mine, 


We will simply just  “Be” together in love. 💖


Asé

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Man meets Queen.

If you see that I’m a Queen, don’t approach me like a f*** boy.

Since you claim to be a King, then stop playing with toys.

Don’t address me as a goddess then call me b**** beneath your breath.

Trying to strip me of my confidence until there’s nothing left.

I speak life into you King, although you have yet to prove your status 

Been the realest Queen from jump,  Let me put you up on my magic

I pull the stress out your body through the soles of your feet

Hold it in my hands, close my eyes, and breathe

Lift it up unto the heavens, then I flip it around. 

Heal and transmute, then poor it back into your Crown 

Cleansing your aura, clearing out your blocks 

Got you walking ’round like a living, breathing Ankh.

Now you’re feeling like that king named Midas 

Everything you touch turns gold and you don’t know why. It’s 

Because you got a dope a** Queen on your arm 

A true goddess of light, let me put you on….

 

 

King my Queen

I want a King who can line himself up.

And I’m not talking bout no little haircut.

Sit down and feel it from the bottom to the top. 

Kundalini rising, keep it climbing, don’t stop!

You say you wanna bae me, you say you wanna wife me,

But do you even really know what excites me?

You call me a Queen, and I’m a Queen fa’sho

But are you truly ready to release your ego?

If I get a word for you, how will you deal with it?

Will you be receptive, or will you just dismiss it? 

How can I heal the world without healing my man? 

If you wanna be with me then you gotta understand 

Energy is contagious 

No matter what you think you can’t fake this

If you’re off balance, I’ma feel it from here  

And if you can balance yourself, then I ain’t going nowhere.

Wake up and rise with me. 

Ascend to  greater heights with me.

Pour into my life the way I pour into yours.

I’m Isis Ma’at.  I heal and balance your soul.

​A Queen’s Love.


How can I judge you, when I’ve made mistakes of my own?

How can I support you, if I consistently tear you down?

How can I expect you to be perfect, if I am not perfect myself?

How can I ask you to make me laugh, if I am always in a bad mood?

How can I be loyal, if I am quick to replace you with another?

How can I say I’m honest, if I tell you lies from the very start?

How can I listen to you, if I never stop talking?

How can I learn from you, if I always have all the answers?

How can I expect you to love me, if I don’t already love myself?

How can I ask that you commit to me, if I am not committed to loving you on your worst day?

How can I say “I’m here for you”, if I don’t try to understand you?

How can I be lost without you, if I am connected to the Divine within?

How can you be my everything, if I truly believe I am more than enough?

How can you complete me, if I am already whole?

How can I want you to grow, if I am not doing the work to grow on my own?

How can I require more of you, if I am only giving the bare minimum?

How can I fully embrace you, if I refuse to trust you?

How can I enhance you, if I only cause you drama?

How can I say I want you, if I can’t appreciate you?

How can I honor you, if I don’t respect you?

How can I say I love you, if I don’t show it with my actions?

How can I be a true Queen, if I don’t even know what that means?