I’ve never wanted a relationship.
I was always inspired by hermits.
I used to mail formal invites to my “break-up parties” that were held within a week of ending a relationship.
I used to have major panic attacks at weddings and bridal showers, so I stopped trying to go to them at all. I knew people wouldn’t understand the anxiety I felt, so I would just mail gift cards after the fact.
At weddings, when the couple recited the vows, I would see shackles and hear words of ownership being spoken.
I had a panic attack halfway down the aisle of my own wedding and literally needed both of my parents to walk me. They were whispering encouraging words, “Keep going. You’re okay. “
My marriage became abusive within the first two years.
I regretted forcing myself to do something that was clearly so unnatural for me.
I was excited to get divorced. I didn’t have a party, but I have celebrated my freedom every day since he left.
It’s been four years since my divorce was final.
I feel Whole. Complete. Healed. Powerful. Intuitive. Devine. Royal. Precious. Loveable. Amazing. And Aligned with Spirit and Truth.
I don’t want to jeopardize any of that by adding another person to the equation who will interfere with the progress I’ve made.
Some people can be needy. Clingy. Manipulative. And unintentionally controlling. I’m so in love with my personal growth and ascension journey, I have no interest in compromising that for the sake of a romantic relationship. Time is an illusion and this may or may not be my last lifetime.
Either way, I’m enjoying my journey without a man so much that I don’t want a man if I can’t continue to grow and flourish as I have these past four years.
I am so much better! I want more! I am in LOVE with growing!!! If he can’t pour into my soul, I don’t want him.
If all he can do is focus on the physical aspects of me and things of this temporary, 3D realm, he’s not for me.
“He” will be my King, not my student.
“He” will pour into my being, rather than deplete me.
“He” will show me with his actions that I am in great hands.
“He” will not run from my truth.
“He” will empower me with his consistency and be patient as I allow myself to trust him.
“He” will encourage me through his energetic vibration.
His higher self will speak to mine and say “Keep going. You’re okay” …….
And I will believe “Him” and let myself love again.
I won’t be “His” and “He” won’t be mine,
We will simply just “Be” together in love. 💖