Only Love Lives Here!

This work week has been very interesting.  Monday was rough!  VERY rough!  I literally wanted to go to my car and never return! ūüíĮ 
As a result, Tuesday was more emotional than usual due to the retrograde of 5 planets last month and the full moon in Scorpio this week. But God always knows what we need at just the right time.  He sent me three students that I love me and they also love me back.  They are awake and hungry for conscious wisdom.  They asked how I was doing and if I was okay when they sensed something bothering me.  Instead of being “strong”, I decided to share so I told them the truth-
How I get so frustrated coming to work and being trapped in a room with people that are consistently disrespecting me.

How mad it makes me that they get little to no discipline from admin and they act up more because they know they can get away with mostly everything. 

How much it hurts that I care about most of my students more than they care about themselves.

How angry I am that I have to fight just to do my job.

How irritating it is to force-feed knowledge to students who act like they are anti-education.

How helpless I feel in this system that is committed to overlooking the real needs of students by forcing me to overtest them and restrict their physical and creative energy.

I told them how painful it is to see the future of every student..Including the poor choices they make and the regrets they will have for not listening to me. 

How irritating it is to have my family and co-workers make lame justifications for all of the bs I go through and tell me to just suck it up and because I’m “strong”.

They understood.

I said I needed to clear out the negative energy in my room and fill it up with positivity and  love.

They said they wanted to help.

I let them.

One covered the window on the door. 

Another opened the window.

I made a crystal grid on the center table of my room.

We sat around it at the table and meditated together for a couple minutes.

I instructed them to pull up beautiful thoughts and see everyone being good and feeling calm, loved, and safe. 

While in that space, I asked them to say,

“Only love lives here”.
I got up and lit a tiny piece of sage and cleansed the room and furniture. 

I shooed the negative energy out of the window.

Then I infused healing energy into each student’s desk.

I sat back down with them and we held love in our hearts together.  I told them to fill the room, then the school with a beautiful healing green light of loving energy.

When we finished, I left the crystals there and told them not to let anyone touch them.  

When my afternoon classes came in, I moved the crystals to my desk and decided to take my students outside for some fun team building activities and connect it to a lesson around being proactive vs. reactive.
Twice this week, a student with severe ADHD took the initiative to ask me if he could meditate in my room to help him be calm and prevent himself from getting in trouble.

I asked if he wanted guided or just music.  He preferred a guided meditation.  I shared my meditation oil with him and sat on my beanbag to join him.

I’m an empath as well, so I could feel him as if his body was mine.  I allowed the feelings of jittery distraction and anxiety run through my body…. Then I breathed.  I inhaled his energy and exhaled all the busyness that is no longer serving him.  I could see his life and the stress he feels.  How he is basically on his own…  

Then, I got downloads!  I made a green smoothie for myself this morning.  I was instructed to share it with him.  “Let him taste it and feel how good it makes him feel”.  I was told to talk to him about his diet and how to manage his energy through God’s food and meditation.

Then, suddenly, I felt him feeling calm and relaxed. 

We opened our eyes and  I obeyed my orders.  I got him a cup and poured some of my smoothie in it. He liked it. I told him how to make it. I told him what foods to avaoid and what to eat more of.  

While walking him back to class, I got another instruction:

 “Make him an obsidian chakra balancing bracelet this weekend.”  
I don’t know how to define what I do.  I’m labeled a “teacher”, but it doesn’t seem like I’m teaching anything academic that will be on these standardized tests.  

However, it feels like what happens in my room is sacred and life changing….when I can get through.

I don’t exactly know where I’m headed, but I do know I’m being led.  Instead of stressing trying to figure it out, all I must do is obey.

For now, it looks like this teacher has some homework for the weekend.  

‚ÄčHearing God’s Voice.

This morning, Tino asked to come outside and meditate with me. ¬†He grabbed a peacock ore crystal and a mat. ¬†I grabbed my mat and amythyst. ¬†We chose a spot in the sun. ¬†He connected his mat to mine. ¬†I reminded him that when we meditate, we are listening to God. I told him to feel God in all the nature that surrounded us. ¬†I pointed to a bird flying in the sky and reminded him that God lives inside and takes care of all living things. ¬†I called his attention to all the abundance of life around us…. ¬†The trees, squirrels, bugs underneath the ground, fish in all the lakes and oceans, and even the fish and critters living in the yucky Flint river. ¬†A helicopter began flying overhead toward the hospital. ¬†I pointed to it and told him that God is taking care of all of us…. The pilot who’s trying to land safely, the nurses on board trying to take care of the sick person inside, and the sick person who is probably praying to get better. ¬†God hears all of us and gives us all that we need, just at the time we need it. ¬†Then, we rubbed our fingers through the grass. ¬†I told him we were like one tiny, little blade of grass among all the billions of people and other life existing on Earth. ¬†He pulled one blade of grass up and looked at it. ¬†I reminded him that even that tiny blade of grass needs the right amount of sun, rain, and nutrients to survive and God gives the grass so much love and care that it grows back every year, even after I cut it every week in the summer. ¬†Then, he looked at his crystal and remembered that God makes them too. ¬†I said, “they are found deep in caves and they’re really hard to get to, but God grows them and created them to give off energy to help us feel good.”

I told him to close his eyes, breathe deep, and feel the wind and sun touching his face, listen to to the birds and other sounds of life all around us. ¬†We both did it. Together. ¬†Side by side, in lotus position, crystals in hand…. ¬† We sat in silence for about 10 minutes. ¬†We opened our eyes and then, something really powerful ¬†happened; I taught him how to hear God.

“When you have a problem, and you need God’s help in knowing what to do, just sit down, close your eyes, and speak to God with your heart. Say how you feel and ask a question, then, listen for the answer. ¬†It won’t sound like a big deep voice coming from the sky because God lives inside of us. ¬†It will probably sound like your own voice, but instead of hearing words in your mind, you will feel it come from your belly and heart. It will probably be something different than what you would normally think, and it will feel really good. ¬†You will feel strong, confident, and peaceful. ¬†The answer will make you feel a warm sense of joy and love. ¬†When you open your eyes, you will know exactly what to do.
If you ever feel icky about something, stop what you’re doing and sit down to ask God what you should be doing instead. ¬†When you feel that peaceful answer rise up, be obedient. ¬†Do what you saw in your mind and follow what God showed you in your heart.
Lastly, the most important thing to do is to say, ‘Thank you’. ¬†The more you listen, the more you will be able to hear. ¬†The more you are thankful, the more God will bless you.”
At that moment, I realized, this was the most powerful lesson I could ever teach my six year old Sun:
Hearing God’s Voice.

Letting go of 3D…. For good!

We are programmed to function and operate in only 3D from birth.  Mostly everything we encounter in our physical, social, economic, educational, and religious experience teaches us and molds us to sustain a 3D existence.  This is due to the needs of the capitalist economy we were born into and the matrix created to fulfill those needs.  As we become enlightened, and eventually awake, we move from 3D to 5D.  We can only make this move by releasing all of those things we were taught and conditioned to believe we “NEED” in 3D. 

 Most of these “needs” are so deeply embedded in our subconscious minds, that we don’t even realize that we are holding on to thoughts and routines that are no longer serving us.  It can be scary to literally disrupt the foundation of our physical existence….on purpose, by letting go of the things we have been taught since our formative years (I need a job to earn money.  I need money to survive.  I need a spouse or children to fulfill my purpose for being created). However, by gradually defining the basis of our own lives, and deciding what WE truly believe, want, and need, we evolve into beings who are less physical and more spiritual in existence.  By straddling the fence, so to speak, we delay our progress in this evolutionary process.  So in short, we hold on because we fear letting go.  We fear having to go through the work of redefining our foundational beliefs.  We fear looking crazy to other people.  We fear…..the unknown.  

Living in 5D, means knowing that you don’t have to know all the answers at any given moment, but understanding that you have all of the answers inside of you all the time and exactly how to access that infinite wisdom at any given moment.  We are taught that life is hard.  We must struggle, work hard, earn our stripes, pay our dues…in order to be successful.  But this couldn’t be further from the truth!  We are supposed to experience the fullness of life as spiritual beings and enjoy the abundance of this physical experience.  We are told that life is short. When death comes, it’s all over…  Lies!  Death is only an illusion.  We come back again and again. In the meantime, we are still alive, in 4D.  The problem is, when we come back again, we are reset. Reprogrammed into this 3D existence with a 3D state of mind to begin the process again- releasing and reconstructing our mental programs in order to return to our truest form of Self.  Our higher self.  Our completely etheric being. So in a nutshell, habit and fear keep us from letting go of 3D.
Like any other habit, you release 3D tendencies by replacing them with more suitable, 5D strategies, one step at a time. 

“Black Consciousness” vs. Consciousness.

One day, I hope that all my “Black Conscious” friends realize that being angry is not really effectively raising the consciousness of this planet.  Yes, it is absolutely necessary that we have a true knowledge of Self.  Yes, we need to be aware of what has been and is still going on behind the history and systems of this physical world.  Yes, we do need to unify, build, and support each other in our socio-economic endeavors.  Yes, we need to rebuild our communities and create our own systems of education, finance, health, and commerce. 
But no, we do not need to expend our precious energy on hating those that have hated us for centuries.

On the contrary, we need to use our energy wisely and transmute the BS that is pushed our way. Instead of allowing our vibration to be manipulated and controlled by the systems we disagree with, we need to maintain our positive, and high vibes.  When we feel overwhelmed with anger, we need to transmute that negative energy into love and compassion for our people, our communities, and our world.  To love our enemies does not necessarily mean to like them.  It means to love the lessons learned, and to appreciate the strength and wisdom which have been passed down from generations of our ancestors through the intricacies of our DNA.  

Some of my most conscious brothers and sisters are so bitter and filled with hate, they don’t even realize how deeply  they are caught up into this web of a matrix and playing right into the hands of the oppressor.

Overstand this:  Wisdom is in our melanin.  Learn how to use it properly.  Nurture. Educate. Empower. But most importantly, LOVE. Everyone. Period.

To be conscious is to be intent on raising not just awareness, but also the vibration of this planet.  Why do you think we knew how to build pyramids in the first place?  I know you didn’t think they were actually just burial tombs. Lol

-Hotep ‚úĆ

Just because someone comments on your posts, sends you a friend request, or inboxes you, doesn’t mean you owe them anything. 
Honestly, if we all went on dates or invested our full attention and effort into every one of our Facebook friends and inboxers, we would all be labeled unfavorably for being caked up with so many people in this group.  
If someone doesn’t respond the way you hoped, it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you… or them. It may not mean anything at all.  There are a million reasons why people may not take your bait, but that doesn’t mean they’re just too picky or on some bull****. It might just mean they’re busy and after exerting all their energy at work or with other responsibilities, there’s simply not enough left to give.  It could also mean that they just aren’t trying to be in an instant relationship…. tomorrow.   The biggest turn off to me is to feel pressured. Like I HAVE to call or HAVE to date, give time, or energy to someone that is not my man.  I have so many other things to take care of, the last thing I need is an obligation that is not technically my obligation, especially when I didn’t choose to have the obligation in the first place. 
When it feels good, it flows naturally. When it doesn’t feel good, it simply doesn’t flow.  You cannot fake chemistry, and it’s not exactly necessary to date to see how you vibe with someone.  Honestly, you can feel a vibe or mutual interest just by interacting on posts. If there is something there, chances are, you’ll feel it right away. Likewise, if there’s nothing there….. Well then, there’s just nothing there and you won’t feel a thing. Personally, I don’t do exploratory dating.  I won’t date if I don’t feel a good vibe off rip.
Don’t take it personal. Just because two people are single doesn’t mean they’re a match.

‚ÄčGrowth vs. Manifestation.

When we encounter contrast, discord, or disappointment, we know right away what we don’t want to experience, and sometimes, in that instance, we also know what we do want instead. But how do we get from point A to B?  How do we go from  having unhealthy relationships to manifesting the love we need, want, and deserve?

First, we recognize what we don’t want. But if we keep thinking about it, we will only attract more of it.

Next, we identify what we do want.  But we must align ourselves energetically with what we desire, and focus only on the feeling of having it if we truly want to receive it. Then, that will be all we can attract.

Finally, we must do the internal work to be mentally and emotionally able to receive what we want.  If it is something we’ve never had or seen before, it may be difficult to do this. The majority of people stop short of completing this step.  Although what they say they want has begun to appear, they are too caught up in the snares and residue from the past to be open to receiving it.  As a result, they sabatoge their own success.

Some people remain stuck on the first step and get frustrated with all of the negative encounters they have, yet they can’t understand how they are responsible for attracting what they continue to experience.  

Many get stuck on the second step because they don’t know how to align themselves and become a vibrational match with what they want.

Most never realize that they’re hindering their own progress and they are not actually ready or capable of receiving what they say they want to attract.  

Growth is a process.   It’s about learning the lessons of our life experiences and humbling ourselves enough to admit our mistakes, take ownership of our shortcomings, and accept our past for who it has shaped us to become.

Manifestation requires growth and evolution.  It’s more than exerting massive effort, concentration, and repeatedly trying to force an ideal situation to unfold. 

In order to manifest on a higher level, we must first grow to a higher level of consciousness.

Are you ready to receive what you want?

The gray area.

Traditionally, we think of the following stages as it relates to dating:

1.  Courting

2. Dating

3. Going steady

4. Engaged

5. Married
In current times, we often consider  the stages of dating to be:

1. Kickin it

2. In a relationship

3. Engaged

4. Married

However, there is an entire gamut of categories that bridge the gap between “kickin it” and “in a relationship”. Some people are so driven by achieving a title of exclusivity with their person of interest,  that the gray area between “kickin it” and “being in a relationship”, is arduous and daunting to say the least.

 For those of you who often find yourself bewildered and perplexed by this elusive gray area, I have devised a range of categories to help you have peace and clarity when thinking of your situationship:

1.  Boothangishkinda – someone who is very new, yet has you intrigued with attraction and interest. It is way too early to determine whether or not they are everything they portray themselves to be. You have your guard up, but you are very hopeful.

2.  Boothangish –  someone who has been around for a little while that you are interested in, but not quite sure they are everything you would want in a relationship. You are still getting to know them and there may be something about them that gives you some reservation. You talk to them often, but not daily.

3.  Boothang – this person makes you smile and you really like him/her. You talk to them frequently and hang out with them regularly. However, you are not committed and that is very clear. You feel drawn to them, but there are some unspoken boundaries that you know you cannot cross.   For the most part, you think this person could be a very good partner in the future, and you hope that things keep going well. However, you are still getting to know him/ her so you are not one hundred percent convinced that you want to commit yet, or that he/she wants to commit to you.

Boo –   You love you some him/her! You want to see this person as much as you can.  Your face lights up and you feel butterflies whenever you’re near each other. You are eager for the day that you will be able to say he/she is your significant other.   You know that the next step is exclusivity and you hope everything stays intact so you can make it to that point.

Hopefully, you will be able to use this as a guide to understand the status of any gray area situationship you may be involved in now or in the future and therefore, act accordingly.

There’s nothing worse than thinking you’re exclusive and finding out that you are simply a boothangishkinda.

Let’s keep it in perspective, and call it what it is, not what we wish it could be


. Shall we?

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