Category Archives: Freedom

Love and Truth.

Confession: 

I’ve never wanted a relationship.  

I was always inspired by hermits.

I used to mail formal invites to my “break-up parties” that were held within a week of ending a relationship.

I used to have major panic attacks at weddings and bridal showers, so I stopped trying to go to them at all.  I knew people wouldn’t understand the anxiety I felt, so  I would just mail gift cards after the fact.

At weddings, when the couple recited the vows, I would see shackles and hear words of ownership being spoken. 

I had a panic attack halfway down the aisle of my own wedding and literally needed both of my parents to walk me.  They were whispering encouraging words, “Keep going.  You’re okay. “


My marriage became abusive within the first two years. 

I regretted forcing myself to do something that was clearly so unnatural for me.

I was excited to get divorced.  I didn’t have a party, but I have celebrated my freedom every day since he left. 

It’s  been four years since my divorce was final.  


I feel Whole.  Complete.  Healed.  Powerful.  Intuitive.  Devine.  Royal.  Precious.  Loveable.  Amazing. And Aligned with Spirit and Truth.


I don’t want to jeopardize any of that by adding another person to the equation who will interfere with the progress I’ve made.  


Some people can be needy.  Clingy.  Manipulative.  And unintentionally controlling.  I’m so in love with my personal growth and ascension journey, I have no interest in compromising that for the sake of a romantic relationship.  Time is an illusion and this may or may not be my last lifetime.  


Either way, I’m  enjoying my journey without a man so much that I don’t want a man if I can’t continue to grow and flourish as I have these past four years.  


I am so much better!  I want more! I am in LOVE with growing!!!  If he can’t pour into my soul, I don’t want him.  


If all he can do is focus on the physical aspects of me and things of this temporary, 3D realm, he’s not for me.  


“He” will be my King, not my student.

“He” will pour into my being, rather than deplete me.

“He” will show me with his actions that I am in great hands. 

“He” will not run from my truth.

“He” will empower me with his consistency and be patient as I allow myself to trust him.  

“He” will encourage me through his energetic vibration.


His higher self will speak to mine and say “Keep going.  You’re okay” …….


And I will believe “Him” and let myself love again. 


I won’t be “His” and “He” won’t be mine, 


We will simply just  “Be” together in love. 💖


Asé

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MOVE ON!

How loudly must we cry in order to be heard?

How bad does it have to get before we are understood?

If I have a flashback and cry in class

All you do after everyone laughs

Is tell me: 

MOVE ON!

I wish you would take me to the side

Give me some tissue for my eyes,

Maybe a hug would be good 

If you sincerely felt like you should.

But instead, you just tell me:

MOVE ON!

What am I supposed to do?

Who am I supposed to go to?

I am the voice of those unheard

Those who have had their dreams deferred.

Parents who are stressed

Teachers who are overwhelmed

Children with arms outstretched

Longing to be rescued.

We can’t forget how we 

got here so how can we:

MOVE ON?

From sitting in the desk

To now standing behind it

A single parent of two little ones

No words can describe this

Feeling of fear and despair

Yet hopeful determination.

We are resilient.

We are creative. 

But we need our next generation!

Only in love and unity will we:

MOVE ON!

We don’t have a choice

I wish more would raise their voice

Rather than suffer in silence

Trying to keep their faces fixed

I wish less would talk and more would listen

It would completely change their disposition.

If they could hear our ancestors guide us

They wouldn’t just lead, but they would help us survive this.

Then we could:

MOVE ON!

One thing I’ve learned in life

Is we can’t depend on someone else’s dime

We must rise to our feet

Brush the dust off our sleeves.

Sit still in meditation,

And follow our intuition

We must fill ourselves with love

Overflowing with power from above

Grab the hands of our neighbors 

Lift them up in praises

And together let us all say:

MOVE ON!

Letting go of 3D…. For good!

We are programmed to function and operate in only 3D from birth.  Mostly everything we encounter in our physical, social, economic, educational, and religious experience teaches us and molds us to sustain a 3D existence.  This is due to the needs of the capitalist economy we were born into and the matrix created to fulfill those needs.  As we become enlightened, and eventually awake, we move from 3D to 5D.  We can only make this move by releasing all of those things we were taught and conditioned to believe we “NEED” in 3D. 

 Most of these “needs” are so deeply embedded in our subconscious minds, that we don’t even realize that we are holding on to thoughts and routines that are no longer serving us.  It can be scary to literally disrupt the foundation of our physical existence….on purpose, by letting go of the things we have been taught since our formative years (I need a job to earn money.  I need money to survive.  I need a spouse or children to fulfill my purpose for being created). However, by gradually defining the basis of our own lives, and deciding what WE truly believe, want, and need, we evolve into beings who are less physical and more spiritual in existence.  By straddling the fence, so to speak, we delay our progress in this evolutionary process.  So in short, we hold on because we fear letting go.  We fear having to go through the work of redefining our foundational beliefs.  We fear looking crazy to other people.  We fear…..the unknown.  

Living in 5D, means knowing that you don’t have to know all the answers at any given moment, but understanding that you have all of the answers inside of you all the time and exactly how to access that infinite wisdom at any given moment.  We are taught that life is hard.  We must struggle, work hard, earn our stripes, pay our dues…in order to be successful.  But this couldn’t be further from the truth!  We are supposed to experience the fullness of life as spiritual beings and enjoy the abundance of this physical experience.  We are told that life is short. When death comes, it’s all over…  Lies!  Death is only an illusion.  We come back again and again. In the meantime, we are still alive, in 4D.  The problem is, when we come back again, we are reset. Reprogrammed into this 3D existence with a 3D state of mind to begin the process again- releasing and reconstructing our mental programs in order to return to our truest form of Self.  Our higher self.  Our completely etheric being. So in a nutshell, habit and fear keep us from letting go of 3D.
Like any other habit, you release 3D tendencies by replacing them with more suitable, 5D strategies, one step at a time. 

“Black Consciousness” vs. Consciousness.

One day, I hope that all my “Black Conscious” friends realize that being angry is not really effectively raising the consciousness of this planet.  Yes, it is absolutely necessary that we have a true knowledge of Self.  Yes, we need to be aware of what has been and is still going on behind the history and systems of this physical world.  Yes, we do need to unify, build, and support each other in our socio-economic endeavors.  Yes, we need to rebuild our communities and create our own systems of education, finance, health, and commerce. 
But no, we do not need to expend our precious energy on hating those that have hated us for centuries.

On the contrary, we need to use our energy wisely and transmute the BS that is pushed our way. Instead of allowing our vibration to be manipulated and controlled by the systems we disagree with, we need to maintain our positive, and high vibes.  When we feel overwhelmed with anger, we need to transmute that negative energy into love and compassion for our people, our communities, and our world.  To love our enemies does not necessarily mean to like them.  It means to love the lessons learned, and to appreciate the strength and wisdom which have been passed down from generations of our ancestors through the intricacies of our DNA.  

Some of my most conscious brothers and sisters are so bitter and filled with hate, they don’t even realize how deeply  they are caught up into this web of a matrix and playing right into the hands of the oppressor.

Overstand this:  Wisdom is in our melanin.  Learn how to use it properly.  Nurture. Educate. Empower. But most importantly, LOVE. Everyone. Period.

To be conscious is to be intent on raising not just awareness, but also the vibration of this planet.  Why do you think we knew how to build pyramids in the first place?  I know you didn’t think they were actually just burial tombs. Lol

-Hotep ✌

The Art Of Letting Go.

How do you deal with rejection?

How do you deal with the disappointment of a hopeful romance that ends before it starts?

What about a long-term relationship that ends suddenly?

Or a marriage that dies long before it is legally terminated?

After many let downs over the course of my lifetime, I have developed a coping strategy that has helped me bounce back like a rubber band every time:

1. Detach.  

2. Release.  

3. Reflect. 

4. Learn. 

5. Align. 

6. Ascend.

1. Detach what you want to experience in an ideal relationship from being assigned to any specific person.

2. Release the ideas, desires, and any expectations you had about that particular person or relationship.  They are no longer serving your highest good.

3. Reflect on your experience within the relationship, honestly.  Don’t fluff it up to appear to be something it never was.  

4. Learn the lessons that this experience is trying to teach you about yourself.

5. Align with the Divine source energy of the Most High flowing within you.  

6. Ascend to a new level of overstanding and show appreciation for the opportunity to grow.

No one is perfect.  

We all have flaws.  

Forgive yourself for any mistakes you have made and love yourself in spite of your flaws, even if the other person didn’t.  

You are a beautiful being that was created deliberately and given an intended purpose.  

You are valuable.

You are exquisite.

Just the way you are!

Love yourself, and others will be drawn to you.

Now, simply let go….and walk away.

You cannot receive your blessings when your hands are filled with pain.

What do I want?

I want a partner that feels good and fits me nicely…….

In every way.

I want to feel adored and cherished.

I want to feel like out of all the other women that want him, he only wants me.

I want to feel beautiful, sexy, supported, understood, respected, inspired, safe, trusted, and most importantly, loved.

I want to feel sexually satisfied.

I want to feel….sprung.

I want our relationship to be unlimited.

I want it to flow, with ease.

I want to go as far as we want to go, without hesitation or restriction.

I don’t have a benchmark.

I don’t have a white picket fence fantasy.

I don’t have a due date.

I don’t even have “relationship goals”.

I just want to BE….. 

With him.

I know my worth.  I am priceless.

I don’t need to convince him or hope he notices all the greatness within me.

He sees my rarity and value before he  even initiates conversation.

He knows he needs to clean up his dirty laundry first, because I will see it all in a quick glance of a selfie if he doesn’t.

He is a King.  

He knows what I need because he has learned from the Queens that raised him. 

He enhances my growth, just by being himself.

The more freedom and space he gives me, the more I flourish and appreciate him.

The more I appreciate him, the more he treasures me.

What do I want?

Love.

Without boundary or expectation.

Life in Contrast.

​How do we remain high when so many things around us are low?
Detach.
That doesn’t mean stop caring.  It just means don’t embrace the negativity as a part of our beings.
There are levels of consciousness.
First, we become aware of the truth behind the lies.
Next, we release our old mental programs and re-evaluate the origins of our belief systems.
Lastly, we must step out of ego and listen to Divine Wisdom as we heal and move forward.
Many people skip this last step and become entrenched with the negativity that surrounds them.  Before long, their ego is intensified by fear and anger.
Their chakras get out of balance, and they become overwhelmed with the chaos and confusion bombarding this physical realm.
We speak of our ancestors, but how many of us listen to their guidance?
They are observing our struggles from a higher demension.  They will tell us the way to peace, if we would only listen.  They have been through much worse than we are facing now.  They know from experience exactly what we need to do to overcome the barriers we face.  They know that most of what paralyzes and restricts us, is only an illusion. We have insurmountable power flowing through our etheric and physical bodies.  
We have the ability to transmute energy from negative to positive.  Fear into love.  War into peace. We don’t believe it, but only because we aren’t listening….
Our ancestors are within us.  

As is the Divine.  
Know Thyself.
Change the World.